Monday, June 18, 2007

Love Accordingly,

The past few months have been stressful as some of you know, For those of you that don't it is a lonnngg story.

Anyhow.. While dealing with all of the stuff some things have been brought out. Espeically when it comes to how a person is to love another. So I wonder how does one show love? Do they show love set by standards other people make? Do they show love when they are a non custodial parent paying child support. When they are the custodial parent and do what they feel is best to protect the child? When in all actuality they are loving how they feel is the best to show love? Or do they need to love someone by the standards set for them by someone else?

I am to the point finding that there are some relationships while I love the person and care about them they are toxic to me and create issues in my personal life so for the time being until I am a little stronger I am just done with the ones who are hurting me.

My Girl Pants is doing well however his lies are starting to catch up to him. He is not the son I raised. I miss him and love him so, But I am showing tough love,
I love him I am here for him I will support him and I will continue to call every week, but I refuse to allow it to hurt as much when we cannto talk. He is 15 he has a life outside of me and I have to respect that.

Bubbies is just such a toddler into everything he is a mile a minute and just goes and goes and goes I do not think he actually understands what down time really is.

Baby Girl is 7.. and we are butting heads right now her mouthyness and rudeness and meanness is just finally to the point I have had enough with it. She however is incredibley smart starting 2nd grade.

Mr. Man is starting 5th grade and he is still coming out of his shell and becoming such a sweet young man. we have our good days and we have our bad days. He is a Good kid and coming a long way.

kevlar helmet owner loves all the kids equally but he loves them accordingly.. he loves them the way he knows to love.. not the way I expect or the way His ex wife expects him to love he loves the way he loves..

1 comment:

fivedreamin said...

Oh honey Love is something that can be described by all in a different way and still mean the same. Hang in there! I am sorry you are being hurt ((HUGS)). Glad the kids are doing well and boy do I understand mouthyness and rudeness (Megan has it pegged at 5 yrs old OY! )