Life..

Oh where oh where do I begin??

I have a teenager.. teenage angst and mood swings and WOW!! Were we this bad as a teen??

Do not get me wrong I love him and we have a great relationship but there are some days.. I just need to run away and being both Mom and Dad.. and the arguments about who has the biggest penis.. URGH!!

Mr. Manis doing fantabulous on the Zoloft his official diagnosis is Anxiet Depression (NSO) and ADHD so.. I never saw the ADHD I saw the anxiety that was masking the ADHD.. needless to say I now can see the ADHD but I will not treat him for that yet it is a wait and see process. We are working on a IEP and he has a apt with a ENT in May to look at the possibility of tonsils and Adnoids taken out.

Bubbies goes in the same day to look and see if he needs tubes at 2 his speech is limited and after hearing tests and such he is considered "borderline normal" but has a non infection type fluid behind both ears. But when I hear other 2 year olds I hear sentances and I do not get that from my little bubbies. But then maybe somewhere being as he is my forever last baby there will never be another one i enjoy the babiness for selfish reasons. He is growing so big.. 3 feet tall and like 28 lbs.. he is TALL everyone is quite suprised when i say he JUST turned 2.. He is a sweet little boy when the mood strikes him otherwise he is very much the youngest of 4 and you can tell with how he acts and treats his siblings, he has no fear!

Baby Girl .. Ahhh.. where to begin? She is very much her own person sweet and kind and mean and manipulative and tweaks the truth just enough so she doesnt look like the instigator, everyone who meets her says ohh Cam she is so sweet!!! Take the time to get to know her.. She excels in school, she is so much like me in that aspect.. loves to read loves to be at school has an incredible imagination, she is still sick and twisted, she pulled one of her teeth out because it was bothering her.. so she came in my room and said Momma my tooth fell out.. I laughed and asked her how long it took to pull it out she said Ohh since I layed down at 8 momma.. (it was not 9:30ish) And then she gives me her smile and says but momma My teeth feel better.. I need to take her in and look at maybe getting her in some braces because of all the extensive dental work she has had she needs them soon at 7 she has almost ALL of her adult teeth.

Girl Pants is doing good for the most part he is happier here in Germany and he talks and talks and talks.. He turns 16 in May (23rd to be exact) His taste in things is quite expensive, Momma I want a x box 360 bundle for my Birthday and a new Skateboard.. or THAT BIKE!! (THAT BIKE is 1049.00) hahah my son missed his calling as a teenager should be a comedian!! He is trying in the classes he can tolerate his teachers, biology he hates his teacher and I am not particularly found of her either, She talks so fast you cannot understand a word she says and I have actually had to ask her to slow down so I could understand her, imagine how she is in class??!! He loves his JROTC class other than the days he has to wear his class A's momma can you tie my tie?? Momma I need you to Iron this.. Needless to say he is learning to do these things I am the mom not the maid. He is a fantastic Big brother and all the kids in this building adore him!!

KHO is.. well he has a penis, so some days he is happy some days he is mad some days I would rather have the bubonic plauge than deal with him. We atcually had a conversation the other night about how hard it is for him in Iraq and while I agree I can only begin to imagine how stressful it is there he fails to see the day to day stresses here as well, things like Taking the car in for repairs the kids being sick trips to the ER.. facing the fact that 2 of my children may need surgery and there is noone to help me, that I am a married single mom.. and I have both jobs of mom and Dad and I worry about him.. I actually told him you know while i know it is lonley stressful frightining there and God can only know what other emotion you feel .. You also have no idea what I go through here.. but THERE you can at least stand up say I am done and take a bullet and be done where as here I have to trudge through the muck and the shit on a day to day basis there is no end in sight because even when you get home things will not be normal right off the bat.. May not have been my finest moment but he got the point to lay off his complaining and be happy for what he has!

We went to Berlin for spring break and that was awesome.. The history here is fascinating to me .. In the states the history is there and Ok whatever.. Like California and the Gold rush well you can only go on so many feild trips to the same places before it is boring, but here.. this is what we learned about in history this is what people talk about.. I can see it first hand I can touch that part of history, The Memorial Church (I do not know the German name) but you can see the damage done to it from the bombs in WWII It still stands and the burned blackend parts are there, The Victory Angel stands in a circle, The Berlin Gate (the wall is completely gone there is no wall left to see) then there are the museums,, and I do not recall things like this is California, There was the railroad museum.. an art museum.. and a coupl eother ones I have been to, but there was Statues from Plato and Socrates time, there was Queen Nefertiti's bust incredilbe things from these parts of history, Roman ooooart and statues.. ahhh the nerd in me was in heaven, The dinosaur museum was very cool as well, the rocks and minerals and Oh my! the information on the planets and WOW was informaltion overload. But something neither I nor the kids will soon forget.

I enjoyed coming "home" It was great to sleep in my own bed and wake up and shower every day.

We have reached over the half way point we are now looking towards November.. but That is so far yet so close. My friend and I were discussing why those added 3 months make such a difference and it is simple.. KHO left in August, Sept was our anniversary the kids started school Mr. Man had his 10th birthday, there was Halloween Thanksgiving Chirstmas, (he was home for R7R on New years) But then there was Valentines Day his birthday the bubbies turned 2 Girl Pants and Baby girl turn 16 and 8 he will miss all of that.. but now he will miss for a second time The start of a new school year, Our anniversary and Mr. Mans 11th birthday.. its one thing to miss a year of family life but those 3 extra months make you miss certain aspects of the second year. Thats what makes it hard.

But on the upside there is at least a year of guaranteed dwell time right now, they are pushing for 2 years that would be even better!

I added some pictures and I will work on getting better about blogging, I really get into a day to day rut and stay there which is never a good thing.

I recently "found" a friend of mine from Highschool.. I love it when you can find a old friend and pick up like life never inturrupted the friendship!