UpDATE...around 7 last night my phone rang.. he called was great to hear him. although he sounds old
Well for most here that read you know my dad murdered my mom when I was 9 years old. Well after 25 years in prison he was released yesterday.
I called the parole officer and they need to respect his privacy so I gave the po my phone number so my dad could call me... needless to say I stayed up till almost midnight and there was no phone call. I was quite suprised by how I reacted to his not calling, all the feelings of abandonment all the feelings of not being enough for a person, and all the hurt over 25 years came rushing back and I sobbed myself to sleep.
It sucks how at 35 years od a parent who has been gone for 25 of those years can still have such an impact on how we feel.
God love my husband who laid there and tried to tell me all the reasons why maybe he didnt call, what a good man he is. I think I forget how wonderful he is sometimes.
URGHHHH...
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Oh honey... ((Hugs)) I can't even imagine the range of feelings you must be feeling. I am just so glad that you have your husband by your side and being so supportive of you in this tough time. You are such a wonderful person.
I am glad he called you and hopefully it helped your stomach from the flip flops I am sure it was doing. ((Hugs))
I am glad he called. This has to be hugely trying for you.
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