So you tell me there is a God

I am not a overly religious person. I believe there is a power higher than that of man. I believe that there is general goodness in people. With that said .....

The other night out here where I live (the state not right by me) a 3 y.o. autistic boy was hit and killed by a hit and run who was later caught... When I was in Ca. I would hear on the news always about babies who had been dumped in a garbage can and died.. Mothers who give birth to babies who died in utero. Babies who die shortly after... Mothers who die and leave their families behind,
I belong to a message board and this group of women all have been keeping together via this board and a pregnancy board since 1999 One of the boys (born in 2000) Was diagnosed with Cancer 3 years ago.. His cancer came back and from the sounds of it things do not look good for this baby.... I look at Baby Girl and I see the potential I see all the things you see in a 6 yo child.. And my heart is broken for this family who is going through this my heart is broken for this young man who looks wise beyond his years. Who endure throughout the chemo and the treatments and I wonder what an amazing child he must be.
My younger sisters children 6 and almost 3 .... Her 6 yo was diagnosed with juvenille Diabetes and complains of the ants biting her legs and feet.. (I know there is a technical word for this) and I KNOW this is a bad sign .... My neice will never get to be a stupid teenager because of the risks and dangers
My Nephew he doesnt talk he does not socialize well with other kids.. he communicates at home in his comfort zone but there is little to NO talking on his end.

So you tell me there is a God..
Then tell me this...
If there is a god and all I have been told of him why oh why does he allow such horrible things to happen to children? why are babies killed and born dead? Why does he allow children to be abused? to Suffer?? I wrack my brain trying to comprehend this. I cry for the pain I KNOW my neice goes through I cry for people I only know minimally via a chat board and what I read on their situations.
I look at my children and I feel blessed and joyful and loved they complete my world so I wonder how did I get so lucky?


I guess after this week of reading about this young man who is only 6 needing another round of chemo and the Dr's not being sure he can andle it or if it will even save his life and then the 3 yo who was killed by a car I wonder where was God?