I know I did the right thing by allowing him to stay * I hear* his face is clearing up and he is filling out and getting tall!! and he seems happy.. Just he and his Step Mom do not get along (she has a 3 yo son and is learning the ropes with him) He feels she plays favorites and is not hard enough or strict enough with the little boy. Thus causing the animosity between them.
It is the holidays I have NEVER EVER spent a christmas away from him. this would have been our 15th Christmas together.. so 14 years of him here and now he is gone.
Can I change my mind?? can I have my boy back?? I am done sharing! he is MY shiny nickel!!
I know I know I am selfish and evil and horrible and I KNOW once the holidays are over I will feel a little better and OK with this decision he made and I agreed with.
On a side note.. Kevlar helmet *which was STOLEN!* owners ex wifes sister has been doing internet searches on us to find out about us.. I guess I should not let it bother me but it is like Seriously get your own life and stay out of mine!The funny thing is though that she has taken some of the things I have said and turned them into what she wants to believe. and of course ME.. i am taking my anger out on Kevlar helmet owner aka Hubby! he keeps saying just let it go shows how pathetic their lives truly are.. BLECH!! I hate when he is right!
I guess I need to find all the positive right now.. Hubby has things he always wanted but was always told no.. I have a roof over my head food in my stomach 3 wonderful children living here at home with me and my oldest is thriving where he is.. and I am married to a man who loves me and I adore.. My children are healthy and within normal..
Buddy aka Mr. Man is doing well with the treatment he is recieving for his anxiety.. we went in an elevator and he just stood there and laughed didnt hold onto the rails as though he were going to die!!! It was such a refreshing sight!!!
baby girl is becoming a little lady! During Hubbys Christmas party she was dressed up and dancing and laughing!! And the baby.. well what can I say?? he is fat and happy and healthy and keeping me BUSY!
So I have more to be happy about than I do to be sad about and I need to remeber that. I guess writing it out helps me to see it as well.
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I bet you miss him. Nothing like the holidays to make us want to hold on tighter to our loved ones. Your a great mom and I always love hearing about your family!!!! Hope you have a great holiday! Miss ya!
Oh my gosh - YOUR BACK and I'm such a slacker I didn't even realize it.
I totally understand your missing Girl Pants, I miss my kids that live in Texas, even though they both are married and have lives of their own the pain and loneliness is no less.
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