Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Mean Momma!

Well it is official I am a mean mom.
Girl pants is in California visiting his disneyland BIO dad.. He is there for a week friday till this friday. He is also visiting my family as well.
He called me at around 11 pm asking if he can stay in California for another week to which I said NO. plain and simple no.. My reasoning behind this is.... I do not expect a 4.0+ GPA I do not even expect a 3.333 GPA I ecpect at least a C Average I do not think that is asking too much. Well I get Girl Pants report card this week and it is a WHOPPING 1,90 GPA! Umm TOTALLY unacceptable and I told girl pants if he got any d's he would have to go to summer school Silly rabbit trix are for kids me forgot We are LEAVING THE COUNTRY! So there goes his punishment. SO when he calls me tonight asking for another week and I tell him no his report card sucked he got upset with me.. started to Argue with me.. I said are you reall going to argue?? No but I can if you want.. THANK GOD he was in California. That comment did not help his cause.
Now I DO know we will be in Germany for 3 years I KNOW there is a chance he will not see these people for 3 years BUT.... Where have they been what right do they have to come in and out of his life and be the cool people and get the glory when I get the shit end of this stick? I dont want to play this game anymore!
So now.. I sit here completely upset and being a fucking cry baby crying because I said NO.. because I hurt his feelings and he will never know. Then I start to second guess myself did I do the right thing?? Should I have let him stay in California for another week? But I know how this story goes it is another week then till the end of the month then it is while we are in Germany and when he sees the bad he will want to come join me then. And then what? I am the bad guy. So I give to you my playing peices I give to you my pawn I quit I do not want to play this game anymore!
Little man is fast asleep where I should be.. Baby girl is crashed hard and Mr man is asleep Spent a little over 2 hours in the pool today and man did that wipe them out. Baby Girl is getting good in the water she can swim pretty well too.. not good enough I would leave her unsupervised but good enough I am not catching my breath everytime she decides she wants to go under water. I wish now Mr.Man would get a little braver when it comes to the water.
I am tired..... very very tired When children are born there should be warning labels This child is cute and cuddley and you will love it for the rest of its life there is nothing you wouldnt do for this child but BEWARE it comes at a cost.
This child will soon get ideas and opinions that are not in line with yours... they will get a mouth and a attitude and you will "piss" them off they will not like you they will even threaten to not live with you and run away. You will become everything horrific in this world and it will bring you to tears. Said child may even wish harm and pain upon you. BEWARE you will still love said child and do anything for them.
Yes I really do feel bad I said no to Girl Pants. So now I quit.. Maybe it wouldnt be horrible to let him live with someone else for a while? Maybe he would be happier? I am a horrible mean momma. and I quit!

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