Realization

Girl pants has been in California alone now for 3 days and today it hit me it was a realization that he is not coming home to me, At least not for a year at least.
My heart aches right now.
I am having a bad day to be honest. I am unhappy with my weight, the state of my house, I am unhappy with having to move again *although 90% of the time I am excited with the adventure about to come to us* And I am annoyed with the heat!
However yesterday Mr Man and baby girl had a fun time at Point Defiance zoo and aquarium other than being a little hot they had a blast seeing animals they have NEVER seen before the Polar bears were asleep and Baby Girl especially wanted to see them I was especially fond of the Belugas and Soldier Husband and mr Man were excited over the sharks@! It was quite awesome there yesterday. Tommorrow we plan to go to the NWTrek and animal park here in Puyallup/Eatonville
We are enjoying having a pool here at the complex and use it as much as possible Baby girl and Mr. Man both are becoming Ok swimmers.
Mr. Man has both underwater and above water swimming down baby girl does great UNDER the water but not so good above water,
Little Man is loving the pool on really ot days and cooling off that way It is great to see the pleasure on his face when he is bounced up and down in the water.
I am soon hoping this emotional roller coaster slows down and comes to a stop. I go from being hurt and in tears over Girl Pants deciding he wanted to stay in California to happy that he is happy and knowing this is what is best for him right now. I keep being told it WILL get better and I am guessing it probably will .. Time heals all wounds.